I just don't know anymore

I've been so sick since I hit six weeks that it's driving me mad. I keep crying "I don't want this anymore" and "don't ever let me do this again". It's constant nausea and when I eat I get sick within minutes. I even get sick on water and Dramamine. This is my rainbow baby and Everyone is telling me to wait until the second trimester for relief but then some say it never goes away.