Feeling Bummed...

I guess I'm just on here to vent. There's always a feeling of defeat when you are TTC and a negative test comes back. AF is supposed to start tomorrow, I've been praying and I know God has big plans for me and my BF but it's hard to stay positive when everyone around you is happy with their pregnancy or their new baby. It's a jealous feeling that I've always had since I miscarried in 2013. I don't like feeling this way but it's a feeling I can't fight off. I think I'm going to keep TTC but stop tracking ovulation and try to put it in the back of my mind and see what happens. If you ladies could send prayers this way please I would appreciate it... Thanks !!