Going it alone apparently

Hey ladies,
Was just sitting here feeling pretty blue and thought maybe reaching out here would help. Found out I'm pregnant this morning, told the baby's father tonight thinking our biggest issue would be that he would be deployed for the birth and ended up hearing "Have an abortion or you're dead to me." He couldn't even look at me. We obviously weren't expecting this and he's really really angry and says I did this on purpose and that if I didn't then I should have no problem "taking care of it." I already know I can't do that and I'm absolutely heartbroken over his reaction but I can't deny this baby life...I know I would be more heartbroken over having an abortion than losing him in the long run. Hurts like hell right now, so so scared, but I'm 30, first pregnancy and I'm just not willing to NOT embrace this incredibly unexpected but amazing gift from God. I love this child's father so much, will always tell our baby how incredible of a man his or her father is even if he can't bring himself to do this with me...I guess sometimes we just don't know those we love as well as we think we do. Any advice? Oh, looks like I'm due March 31st! 
Warmly,
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