Thursday evening I found out my boyfriend's older sister was pregnant (not expected by any of the family) and as I heard the words my heart began to sink and tears swelled in my eyes. A few months ago her twin had an abortion, their older step sister had a planned pregnancy going on, and recently I found out my best friend's sister is pregnant again...there is just so much baby stuff going on that my baby-yearning heart is hurting. I know realistically I can't want one right now, because of a majority of reasons, but how do I fend off this awful jealousy/sadness that takes over me on various occasions?