I'm losing my mind!!!! 😢

It's been five days since I had my miscarriage. The first two days where filled with depression and bed bound tears.then the next two days I tried to keep my mind off the issue by cooking the cleaning and shopping but I'd get really fatigue and irritated or start cramping and would have to sit down or practically run home. This morning I had the most beautiful dream that I was at the hospital and I was walking down the hall with the little hospital gown on and the nurse smiles and says there she is and in a nursery filled with babies I go to the baby that I know is mine and I pick her up. She looks just like me and a head full of hair. And she smiles and coos and grabs my little finger and I'm so happy and smiling then I wake up and burst into tears. This is so heart breaking and I just feel so empty inside like nothing's there, like I've had hysterectomy instead of a miscarriage. I have a headache and I feel nauseous. SMH😢😭😰😳