Need a hug today

My husband and I are trying to conceive our first child after a missed miscarriage at 11 weeks back in March. The baby would have been due in October. Most of the time I'm okay and have made my peace with that loss, but some days are harder than others for reasons I can't always seem to discern. Today is one of those days.

Getting pregnant the second time is not turning out to be as easy as it was the first time and I am driving myself crazy thinking I'm pregnant every month when I'm not. Its only been a few cycles now, but it is hard when you can't plan. I have an enormous amount of respect for all the women that have been doing this longer than I have. I find myself resentful of all the pregnant ladies, especially the ones due in or around October. I hope I'm pregnant again before then, as I think it will make it easier with something positive to focus on, but so far it is not happening.

Anyway, needed to vent a little. If anyone has any advice for getting through this, I'd appreciate it. Otherwise, I'm just going to try to keep my chin up.