So I like to listen to music while I shower..

when I turned my speaker on, it started making sounds , but my phone wasn't connected to it yet...and I heard like...porn sounds...which I do not watch.

So I walked out of the bathroom to see if my tablet was..

When I walked out, I asked my boyfriend what it was and he said it was his phone...

Also, I've been trying to get him to have sex with me for a while... he keeps pushing me away.

But why would he watch that?

He has me, but he won't do anything with me....

But he will watch porn?

I've always been so insecure...

I've never thought I was sexy or beautiful or anything...

So knowing that he would rather watch porn than have sex with me....makes me feel worse....

What do I do?