Ok firstly I'd like to say I'm sorry if this offends anyone and if you've cheated in thr past and have changed, I'm not meaning to bash you I'm just seeing a lot of stupid people cheating, not calling you stupid either.
If you aren't happy and are having those feelings please leave the person. Hurting someone for a lifetimes is not worth it. Know you limits when you're drinking so you don't catch yourself in a situation that you could have prevented. If you've cheated come clean don't try to hide it, that ain't going to work they will find out and when they do all hell is going to break loose. And if your so forgives you, you better start praying because they are person sent from god. Good god. Ok rant over no hate please.