Myself and my SO lost our fairy baby in early July. For the most part SO was spending all the time he could with me afterwords for the month of July but as of about half way through June and all of this month it seems he is gone all the time. We are married we do have 1 child (my only) that lives with us all the time and 2 that come for the weekends (hisPR). Through the week he is drawn between working 2 jobs 2 nights a week and band practice at least 2 night a week if not on the weekend.

So if you are following i get him to myself only 1 maybe 2 nights a week after the 1 child goes to bed. All other nights he is either with the band or at work. Then comes the saturdays/sundays he does not have practice...he is outside mowing all day. Which leaves me with child/ren all the time. Oh and we are ttc. I am stressed to the max, my appetite is falling quite a bit, i often feel lonely and depressed, have a hard time sleeping with out him so im up until he gets home(usually between 1130&1) i love that he has his band thing and its doing well but......wtf do i have to work 12hrs a day then come home to tend to children all evening and then have to care for them all weekend on my own if i am MARRIED? I thought marriage was a team thing? Am i missing something?

Sorry so long and rantish...but i need to know