Depressed and impatient about having a baby

It's going to be 9 months of trying! It's really hard to stay positive and wait for the right time! I'm so sick of people telling me it'll happen in the right time or don't stress, don't think about it too much! Is it just me? My husband doesn't get that every month when I get my period I feel like a failure and I can't decide whether to drink or not party with friends since we're trying! Just venting I know eventually God will bless us with babies. But for now I feel bitter.