So me and my hubby officially decided to ttc about 4 months ago but since then we've only bd about 2 times a month. I feel like he doesn't pay attention to me he gets home and is on his phone watching you tube and I get that he's tired because he works in the sun all day. But I feel so unnoticed. I want him to pay attention to show that he cares but it's just not there. I tell him how I feel and it's like talking to the wall. We'll  for sure be having the same conversation next week. I've never cheated or anything but I had exes try and contact me but I always ignore them. Sometimes I want to talk to them just to feel like I matter. I want attention I want to be wanted but he doesn't see that. I tell him I want a divorce to leave and he either ignores me or tells me he wants to see the papers first. Obviously we can't be sleeping in the same bed if we're getting divorced. Idk what to do. I want change or I'm done. I feel like a table lamp.