Bi polar

I'm diagnosed bi-polar, with manic depression
Everyone hates me when I'm happy
And scared of me when I'm sad
I never know how to connect with people, I seem to just drive them crazy, I feel very close to losing my job and my husband for it.
I just don't know how I should act or what I can do, no matter what I try it's either worse, or the same.
Been dealing with this for about 15yrs
I've seen counselors, but they always choose to stop seeing me