I don't feel anything anymore. I'm laughing, joking, acting silly. But I don't really feel a single emotion. It all started when I saw my boyfriend driving in the car with his baby mama. He looked like he was having a fun time as he had a smile on his face. And the moment I saw him, I got super hurt, super pissed, and then the lights went out and never came back on. Even as I recall the event I still don't feel a damn thing. He's spent all of his time with her for the past 4 weeks and I've seen him once for dinner. He even hung out with my kid brother not long again. And all the pain I was feeling over him being gone (son was just born, I get the newness of his first child) and always stuck up her ass is gone. Am I losing it or have I just learned to shut down and not care?