So I'm 9 weeks, hormones have been up and down but this is a little different... I have hit a depression. I have suffered depression and anxiety since I was little. Been in meds a couple times but I hate meds... I have somewhat learned to control it by myself which is more difficult than you would think if you have ever suffered from the two.. But I'm starting to not be able to make the feeling go away and it hurts. It hurts my heart, my soul, and physically hurts my body....anyone else feel this way. Its not anything specific either. Its like a black cloud jumped inside my body...