Why like why :(

Nena
Ok so after having a chemical pregnancy and AF being 5 days late, which is almost thru come tmmrw. I can't help but cry my eyes out! This will be my 6th month Ttc and I just found out that this girl that really had no care in the world and smoked marijuana every single day, multiple times a day is now pregnant and me? Someone who has quit smoking and is trying all these methods can't even be blessed with a blessing of my own. I am very happy for her but I can't help to feel upset too because me and my husband want this more than anything just as well as the rest of the ladies using this app :( like why can't it happen for us like it does so easily for others :( why can't I be that lucky?! I feel like giving up! I'm so tired of nothing happening and I know there's others that have been trying longer and I feel your pain :( I just wish we could get our BFP like ppl who doesn't even want children as much as all of us do :'(