Not sure where to post but..

Not sure where to start either .

Ok so as I am coming to an end in my pregnancy, my father has been on my mind more often. My father and I haven't had a really good relationship growing up. We never connected . My father is originally my aunts man ( my moms sister. Something scandalous happened between my father and my mom and I came to be ) My grandmother raised me since I was a baby while my mother ran off with some dude to Florida and started a whole life there without me. When my grandmother passed away I moved in with my father when I was 16. Went to high school and all. I tried my best to connect with him but it was pretty tough and awkward. Especially that my aunt takes out her fury and demons on ME because I am a result of an affair that happened between her man (my dad) and her sister (my mom) I guess I am a constant reminder of that.. I would cry at night to myself because I felt nobody understood what I was going through , having to deal with being a "bastard child" or whatever. After years of dealing with this in my fathers house hold I finally up and left at 19 years old. I decided to cut off all contact with my father and aunt for various reasons, one of them being my aunt controlling his every move and decisions, throwing temper tantrums when things didn't go her way. I decided I didn't need that stress in my life. Besides he never defended me whenever she ridiculed me and the works. Sometimes I feel like throat punching her to this day but she's very irrelevant now. Well I'm 29 weeks pregnant today with my first and I'm 20 years old, I have never asked my dad for ANYTHING or accepted anything since I got pregnant . My boyfriend & his family has been my back bone. Well when my aunt found out I was pregnant, she told my dad that she wants him to do NOTHING with this baby nor support the baby in any way, that since I got "knocked up" it's my boyfriends responsibility and mine .. Well where the hell did that come from? & duh it's our responsibility , everything my baby has now is because of my boyfriend, his family & I, silly woman. I just feel like she wants to be heard . Mind you, she has children with my father. His youngest child is not with my aunt or with my mom. Its with another woman and he absolutely ignores this child's needs because my aunt tells him to. Well recently my father has tried getting in contact with me and I had given it lots of thought but the drama that will come with it isn't worth it. I don't want to get harassed by a bitter woman who hates my guts. But at the same time I would like to see my father. I've forgiven him for his faults and would like to let him know but this woman stands in the way. I'm confused about how to handle these emotions . I know that after my baby is born my father might want to see the baby but he won't be allowed to unless she's present, I just know & I am debating whether or not to allow her to at least wait at the door of my hospital room . Damn, I'm confused , any advice? Please?