My husband (41) and I (32) have been Ttc for 5 years now , track every month, have tried just relaxing and forget about it, so tired of hearing what people "think" is encouraging statements it will happen when it is meant to be and don't think about it and it will happen. Ugh. I see my little brothers friends (8 years younger) either get pregnant or get married and conceive on their wedding night so depressing. And on top of everything I work as a receptionist at a doctor's office and we offer free pregnancy tests so how many times we have these young girls come in so angry that they are pregnant when they get a positive, or come out saying, I don't want the darn thing, I just bawl!! Or I have the parents that say I can't remember the child's birth date I have so many kids and then laugh! I finish my job then run to the bathroom and just cry! For the past couple months I thought for sure I was pregnant expecially this month we had sex on most fertile days and accually was nauseous, throwing up, sore breasts and slight cramps about a week before AF was supposed to start so my husband and was so excited! Than AF came 2 days early 😢 I pray and pray and ask that if I cannot conceive please just take this pain away that I feel and it seems like the pain and feeling empty just gets worse, I cried out this past Thursday when I was at work crying if God is ammused in my pain, why me, what have I done so wrong in life that my husband and I deserve this? I know it is wrong to question God and dought him but, why is it that all my life I do charity work, donate ,ext since I was 14 and I feel like I am being punished. Right now I know 6 friends of family or family themselves that have either had babies Within the past 6 months or are pregnant now. So depressing and frustrating, so tired of the negative months, sorry for venting but it does feel good knowing there is someplace that I can talk about this!

God bless you all