Ok so...

My mother was abusive, evil, narcissistic, let my grandmother sell me, drug addicted, blah blah blah.

Ok here's the kicker. She has stage four lung cancer, stage four breast cancer, stage four bone cancer. Doctors have given her at most a year and a half to live.

I am ttc and i don't live with her. And am relived she won't be able to hurt my children.

Is that horrible of me? I didn't feel any sadness when she told me. I was previously pregnant and she threw me through a window and I lost it. But I should feel something for her right? She raised me since I was 11. Am I some kind of sociopath?