Yet another chemical pregnancy

Took a hpt 5dp5dt, and it was positive! Faint, but there! So excited!! Feel so light and happy!

5dp5dt, never got one so early!

6dp5dt, light bleeding started. It's ok, it could be IB! This is finally going to work! Still another faint hpt, it's ok, it's too soon to get darker!

8dp5dt, hpt still positive, but now I have to tilt it in the light to be really sure it's there. Bleeding turns red and strong cramps. The little light inside of me starts to die.

10dp5dt, my beta test is in 4 hours - BFN on hpt.

7 years of IVF and treatment for endometriosis. $50,000 (minimum). Hours of humiliating spread-eagle examinations, injections, blood draws and ultrasounds.

1 missed miscarriage at 11 weeks, and now chem #5.

This was our last time. We agreed if it didn't work, maybe it would be time to stop.

A little piece of my soul is screaming.