No baby ugh

I have taken 4 pregnancy tests and they have came up negative.

I was on depo shot for 1 1/2

Went to the patch for 1 yr

And then was on the pill for 6 months.

Me and my bf have been trying to have a baby for a month now (I know not a long time)

And nothing I tried putting my legs up , pillow under my butt. And nothing !!

I have notes written for the grandparents for a announcement box

I have a few baby items.

Im.just a excited but I feel like it's never gonna happen.. any advice?

Please no bashing