10 DPO NEG FRER....I'M OUT I GUESS

So sad....another month down...I know "they" say you're not out until AF shows up? I feel like I tweak and look so closely at my tests that I would not miss even the faintest line. I seen a pic today where a girl stated she had a "stark white test" on 10 DPO and then a BFP on 11 DPO. She included that "stark white test".....it was ridiculously positive!!!! Uuugggh. So upset. Happy for her....just frustrated at me. Why can't I make this happen? I have prayed, cried, researched, cried, and prayed more!!