Tuesday, Sep 15th. We were celebrating Independence Day for Mexico. Me, my husband and his family were drinking. I had two glasses of tequila and soda. My husband had glass after glass of tequila and soda. At first, his drinks were weak, then he started pouring half tequila, half soda. He was getting tipsy. I drank a little wine with my sister-in-law but I wanted to be the sober adult so after I had two glasses of tequila and 3 glasses of wine (between the hours 9pm-3am) I put down my glass and looked around. The only thing I drank after that was plain soda 7-Up, I made everyone think there was tequila mixed with it but there wasn't. By 4am, almost everyone was drunk and calling taxis to go home. My husband had half a bottle of tequila left (out of 3 large bottles) and he told me to dance with him. Okay. We're dancing. Then he leaves to use the restroom and comes back angry.. (...??) He was obviously drunk, he started talking shit and being really rude towards me. (I did nothing wrong) He started talking about how his family hates me, I'm a bitch, a whore, a slut, I'm fake, I have no ass.. (Yes..I do) and on and on. He then stated he wants a divorce. As I have been thinking about a divorce for the last 2 months, I was actually relived he said it and not me. After he told me he wants a divorce, I smiled. He got angry. Started saying I have a big pussy, and i can't cook or clean like a woman. He said I can't please him anymore and he has to imagine fucking his ex to make him cum. I sat there thinking, pondering, and waiting while he kept talking about his ex. He said she messaged him all the time asking him for sex and that his wife doesn't have to know. He claimed she has a tight pussy and she's not a whore like me. (My husband is my guy #7) His ex fucks 40-50-60 year old men for money. She cheated on him numerous times and that's why they broke up. She was cheating on him with guys she worked with for money. Okay. So, he claimed she's not a whore and he wants her back blah blah blah, he wants babies with her. Yada, yada. I just sat there listening with a SMILE ON MY FACE. He wanted me to say something so I said "Thank you. 😃" And he looked hurt. He looked like he was in shock (😧) I wanted to laugh, instead I said it was good because I wanted a divorce for the past 2 months and finally it was clear to him. He let that sink in. He sat thinking, looking at me.. In total disappointment. Haha. (Sorry) I was overjoyed! Yes I'm getting a divorce. I told him go back to his ex. This woman is moving on and she's not looking for other men right away. My child comes first. I told him it was awesome and he can say what he wants because I had not ONE TEAR. Not one. I told him "Do you see me crying? Do I look upset or heartbroken to you?" He looked at me and said "No.." Ahh, now it's hit him! Now he knows a divorce is exactly what I want. I went right away to my room and started packing telling him "Your ex can move in tomorrow evening, I'll be out. Oh, and I'm taking our daughter with me. She don't need to be around someone like your ex." I packed and packed at 5am and after my fourth packed bag, he says "Baby, come here." Me "No thanks darling, I'm busy packing. Talk to me tomorrow before I leave." Again "Baby, come here, I don't want you to leave. Come talk to me." Me "You said what you wanted and I said what I wanted. It's a truce." He came in the room crying, trying to grab me. Nope, I wasn't having it, I am a strong woman. He said everything he said is a lie. His ex is a hoe blah blah blah. I clean and cook like any woman. I have a nice ass and beautiful body. I take good care of our daughter. He don't want me to leave. He only said everything because he was mad. My pussy is perfect, the sex is awesome, and I do please him- according to him. No, uh huh, not having it. I'm a strong woman. Me "You can keep talking but just know I still want a divorce." He started crying.. Hard and got down on his knees begging me To stay. Not sure what to do... I told him. "Go take a shower, eat something, and then we will talk." I'm thinking he's drunk he's gonna pass out soon. Sure enough no shower, didn't eat, he sat on the couch and within minutes he was passed out.

Awesome. Until, the next day. I slept in my daughter's room, door locked and bags packed. Ready to go. He knocks and knocks on the door. He crys and begs for me to stay. I don't know what to do. I hate seeing him cry, I love him so much. I came out, told him forget about it. I made something to eat and he took a shower and went back to sleep. Waiting for our daughter to awake, I kept thinking about what to do. I haven't a clue. I love him but he made it clear he still loves his ex. I'm major confused. I played it cool the rest of the day and pretended to keep myself busy. He watched a movie with our daughter and basically sat in the room all day. Next day, I didn't wake him up for work. But I was awake in my daughter's room listening for him to get up. He knocks on the door "baby, why didn't you sleep in our room? Is she sick again?" I didn't answer. (I made coffee an hour before and packed his lunch.) he changed, drank his coffee, ate a couple donuts, grabbed his lunch and left. I cleaned house and cooked, cared for our daughter, watched movies arms did laundry. He came home with roses! Omg. Then he walks to me, hands me the roses, and try's to kiss me. I turn my head. He kisses my cheek. He looks sad. I hate that. I don't CARE! He told me the truth and now things are ending. For him mostly. He made dinner, ran me a bath, fixed my favorite necklace, bought me chocolates, and finally fixed my engagement ring. What's the deal? Is he trying to makeup for our huge fight? Last night he said he loves me and our child and he's so happy to have a woman like me. Again, I slept in our daughters room. And yet again, I made coffee, bagels and packed his lunch.

He gets home from work in 5 hours, what do I say? What should I do? I'm dreading this. I don't want to talk. I've been avoiding this since Tuesday and it's now Friday. He needs answers. I love him and I want to stay. But i don't know.. I'm so confused.

Can someone shed light on whether I should stay or go? What should I do or say? He's been begging and crying for me to stay. I love him deeply, I don't seriously want a divorce. But what about everything he said about his ex?! I can't just forget that or shove it aside. Omg, what to do, what to do.. Help and advice would be awesome. TIA

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