My head is all screwed up

Danielle
Hi ladies I'm the mother of two angel babies I lost my first on January 6th 2015 and the other which the dr called a belighted ovulm but I still consider my baby in july. It's such a heartbreaking and life changing thing I miss my babies so so much and it's gotten even worse because if things would have worked out I would have my first baby in my arms by now my due date was in august so it's really hard for me. But after this 2nd loss the dr have decided to look into the reason why this is happening there is so much that goes into it. The dr did a few test and the two that came back was my thyroid and a test for heterozygous. So he sent me to a regular dr and the dr said not sure why he sent this but there really isn't nothing to bad that needs attention and so now this dr wants to add all kind of other yest that I'm not comfortable with because my obgyn didn't test for any of thoes. I actually rather go bCk to my dr and just look more into heterozygous issue because this other dr has no clue what I been thru and I only was sent thete for my thyroid. But like I said this is all to much and overwhelming and I'm just thinking about me husband and I just trying again without all this headache I just want a family so bad is that wrong I don't know what to do losing my Babies has made me go crazy please help