This is my first tww after I lost my little one . I'm having so much Greif and sadness and every little gurgle gets me hopeful for something I might never experience . I thought I was ready to try , but I haven't even gotten to the point where a test would be accurate , and I'm already worried to the point im having panic attacks that are causing fights with my SO. Up crying at 2 am and I just need some support . I know you ladies understand more than anyone .