I'm nearly 17 weeks now and I feel so lucky to be pregnant and that everything is going ok. This pregnancy has really forced me to address my grief over the miscarriage I had on 1st May this year, it's been a very raw, terrifying & emotional process and I've been finding it very difficult to get excited for fear of jinxing this pregnancy. I've been finding it very difficult to move past the loss of our first baby to focus on this one. I'd vowed not to buy anything for this baby until after 24 weeks, but I had an email for a mothercare sale last night (I bought my maternity jeans from there) & this stared out at me: