I've turned my back on God.. and here's why.

I was molested at the age of 13. I begged God to make it stop and it didn't. Not til three weeks later when I finally spoke up. But I was called an attention seeking who're. At the age of 13.

My father abused me and told me I was a disappointment to him and then left. And while he was gone he still verbally abused me.

My mother became an alcoholic and I had to take care of her. She then met my step dad and he verbally abused me constantly.

I was bullied through high school constantly called a who're and ugly even though I kept to my few friends.

Then we started getting evicted from every place we lived and my mother became an alcoholic. Then she turned into a Meth head and I had to take responsibility of my brothers. She's in jail and I'm still struggling.

No matter how much I prayed and begged God for help he wasn't there. So here I am I have lost all faith. Tell me, is there a silver lining? Where is everyone's God now? Hmm? I mean I know its not the worst life to have but at the age of 19 going through all this tell me, where the hell is God? Hmm? He still hasn't helped me.