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Since posting this a few days ago I've received a lot of comments.  Some were very constructive and others weren't .  I'm a realist here.  Motherhood and pregnancy aren't all rose petals and pink clouds.  They're tough.  Everyone has their own financial and professional lives and goals and this news will have a lot of impact on that part of my life.  I still feel devastated and that's ok.  Thank you to all of the posters who shared similar rational and realistic feelings.  It is nice to know I'm not alone.  To everyone else who told me or is thinking about telling me I should feel excited or that this is "god's" plan, thanks but no thanks.