Mental health

Just a little personal info for anyone with advice or who cares.

I've tried anti depressants before and everytime I would start getting more depressed and wanting to die with actual plans at only about the 2nd or 3rd week taking them. (I am 22, 5ft tall and 90lbs so my hight and weight could be why it affects me faster since its not suposed to have any effect for the first month)

I had just stoped zoloft on sep 12th.

I thought the depo shot would help. The last one i got was the 3rd shot, on sep 15th so 9 days ago.

The first 2 or 3 days I was extremely angry, depressed, and out of control.

Then i had 4 or 5 daya of being in a fantastic mood. I was alright with myself and i felt myself smile at life for the first time in months.

And now my mood has shifted again. Waking up angry and depressed. No motivation and extremely antsocial with those who are close to me.

I hope this mood won't last long. I just want to be able to smile effortlessly at my thoughts again.

If anyone has any advice or knows of any medocation to ask my dr about that could help please let me know.

Im exausted and tired of the med that make it worse, but my mind wont let me be content. Im so drained.

(Ps. I was taking lamotrigine / lamictal to find out if I was bipolar but just felt mopey and tired and slept for endless hours on that aswell. It also made me spot for a month while I was on it and a month after i stoped taking it. My pharmacist told me that could mean my birth control could be less effective wich defeats the pourpos of the shot. But with such horrible cramps I need to be on something.)

I just dont know what to do:c