Every month since I lost my baby in April I've been hoping for my rainbow baby and July and August I really thought those were my months because I never had symptoms of my af coming and I tested like crazy and obviously wasn't pregnant.

So now af is due tomorrow and I still tested like crazy with internet cheapies and have not gotten even the faintest of lines. So I'm a bit upset, depressed and sad. And then I feel so stupid for testing, since I lost my little sprout I don't get symptoms of my af coming and I get all excited and then let down when she rears her ugly head.

Feeling down and out af due tomorrow the 26 😭😭😭