Got the worst phone call this morning

Angelina • 26. 9 years w/ my love. Married 💍 I'm an artist, nature lover, Crystal collector, mommy to 2 doggies and our babies, Lilliana 5/26/16 & Elena 5/10/19
Please send me love and prayers and good vibes and thoughts today. My friend's girlfriend called me this morning to inform me that my friend killed himself last night 😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔 I don't know what to think or do. But I can't help but feeling like I should have been around more. 😔😔😔😖 it doesn't feel real.