still experimenting. 20.

So I'm still a virgin having never had P in V sex. My boyfriend and I have been experimenting - cumming on my chest, mutual maturation, oral is a new development. He's my first partner, the first time he went down on me we didn't use protection but we're going to start because I felt bad about it. I'm looking into birth control and finding myself a doctor because I'm crazy nervous about getting pregnant even though we haven't done the actual act that would lead to that. We have not been tested together but he tells me he's clean ( we will get tested once I have a doctor) I feel like I'm going about this all wrong and being irresponsible or something. I don't know what's normal and what's not I guess /: