Still in denial

Kourtnay • mom to aberum-6 savannah-4 and holden born sleeping 9/17/15 my husband is cancer survivor
I lost my baby boy Holden at 24 weeks. I cried so hard for the first 2 days but haven't really cried since. My husband and I talked about him and cried together but now I feel we are pretending it didn't happen it doesn't seem real and our life's are just moving forward. I don't want to be stuck in the sad moments forever but I also feel that maybe we are moving forward and looking to have another to fast. How long after your loss did it take you to gain your strength and talk about having another one.