Tests in faith.

I'm so sorry for your pain, Courtnie. I have personally stopped interpreting suffering as the testing of faith. I do see God at work in the world in all that brings beauty out of ugliness, and healing from pain; and I do believe God is present with us throughout our pain, even when we are unable to feel it (even Jesus felt abandoned on the cross - no one can blame us for feeling the same sometimes!).Pregnancy loss is incomparable, but I can empathize with the desire to make sense of suffering. Different people navigate suffering differently, and your path is entirely yours to choose. Thank you for sharing a slice of your journey with us.

" God is always, absolutely sovereign. He is so much in control that even when Satan tries to ruin us, God takes the weapon that Satan intends to destroy us and uses it for good in our lives. God’s message to suffering Christians is, in effect, “If you will lean on Me in the midst of difficult times, I will use even that painful thorn for your good.”We all have a thorn. We all have something painful that God allowed in our lives that Satan meant for our destruction but that God will use to grow and change us. Whatever that thorn is, we need to choose againtoday to trust Him with it."Pastor James Mcdonald

I'm trying to get pregnant as well and all of my friends are having a baby or are already on their second. Sometimes I feel as if God doesn't want me to have babies but I understand what you're going through bc people keep telling me how it'll happen when I least expect it or it'll come when I'm ready and I feel like giving up at times. But just pray Hun and think positive distract yourself from the negativity and tell yourself that you are going to get pregnant I've read that thoughts become things so if you wake up thinking you're gonna have a bad day it'll happen if you wake up thinking it's going to be a great day that'll happen too. So just distract yourself it helped me get through some real bad situations and now even though my friends pay that their pregnant or their having more babies I'll get upset but I'll realize what I'm doing and then change my thoughts to playing the sims or reading a book it also helps when you ask God to take the negative thoughts away (: I hope this helps you Hun and lots of baby dust your way((: