It really makes me wonder why God makes me go through some of the things I do. There is supposed to be this purpose that leads to something amazing and I don't see it.

My first pregnancy, I lose my son at 6 months. Now I don't even think I'm ovulating to be able to get pregnant again. We've been trying for 4 months now. I just don't see the purpose in these things. It makes it very difficult to have faith.

I tried to go to church for peace but when I did there was a baby dedication like 2 weeks after I lost my son, so I obviously haven't been back since.

It's easy to throw bible verses at people and say have faith, but when you are on the other side it's another story.