how to trust your spouse again when he cheated? we've been married for 10 years and during our 1st year of marriage, he had an affair with his colleague (only god knows how much i hate her) and i was 4 months pregnant during the affair and after i gave birth, i gained weight... i was a mammoth! and he started to fool around again... with much younger girls... i was heart broken... he rather mastrubate while watching teen porn as he said he was into young sexy girls.. he had no appetite to touch me... but now i'm almost back to my 50kg weight and i still find it difficult to trust my husband even though he keeps saying that he now has changed.... i hate him but at the same time i still love him