Let me start by saying I have always wanted to be a mother for as long as I could remember and everyone thought I would be the first out of my family. My sister who never wanted kids now has three, my best friend has one and my other best friend has two. My husband and I have been trying to conceive for 6 months now and every month I get so upset and so hurt after taking the test. I feel like I am doing something wrong and it breaks my heart every time. It has started to really upset me to hear the words "It'll happen when it happens" and my husband just said those same words. We NON-STOP hear from our family/friends "when, when when?" So we lied and said I don't have health insurance so they stopped asking but in doing that i now have noone to talk to about these struggles and emotions. I guess I just need to vent and hear from others if you feel or have felt the same way.