I'm feeling really down and discouraged. My first mc was in January 2015 and my due date passed last month which was sad, and my last mc was early August. After my second mc i decided to wait on trying again for a few months. I cant take another loss, so i talked to my obgyn and they said the depo shot is very effective, and is every 3 months. I thought ok cool 3 months should be enough time and got the shot without doing any research. Now my SO tells me he thinks he's about ready to try again, but i still still dont have my period and its not the 3 month point yet, but after researching, most ladies have trouble conceiving after depo and it could take 18 months to 2 years for my body to become normal and ready....i don't want to wait that long. I want my rainbow baby. My 3 year old daughter keeps asking for a brother or sister and calling her dolls her sister. It makes me so sad that my body has failed me and now i feel like i have been misinformed and now its going to take a long time to get back to normal. I keep seeing pregnant women and it makes me so jealous and angry. Just feeling down.