Vent- TTC #3

I have 2 beautiful boys, 5.5 years and 2.5 years. I love them so so much. We have been trying for number 3 for a year. We had to take a month off in February because i had to have a LEETZ procedure. I had a very early miscarriage in June. So July i did not ovulate until August, and we missed my ovulation window then.

Last month i had an LH surge, and 7 days later my period started. I thought it was a fluke. 6 days ago i had my LH surge, and then my period started late last night. It has gotten to me. I am growing more and more worried that i will not be able to have another child for a long time. I had told myself that if i did not get pregnant this month, it was ok, we get married the end of the month and i would be ovulating around our honeymoon. Now my ovulation window moved up a week, and with this short Luteal phase, i don't even know if it is possible to implant before my period starts again.

I am very grateful that i was blessed with my 2 sons. But i really would like a 3rd child. I am trying my hardest to relax myself, but i can't seem to stay relaxed about it long.

I just need someone to talk to.