Irritated

Going on 35 days with no AF with a 5cm cyst on my ovary, that doesn't seem like its going away. I am tired of hurting all the time. I still have 5 more weeks till I go back for another ultrasound. All I want to do is TTC but I have been cut off till I go back to the Dr. I don't know how much more I can take of this pain. It's interfering with my daily routines, and my job. I don't get on here much anymore besides to log my info, because it's depressing me. All I want to do is cry! Ok rant over.