Hate taking pregnancy test!!

Erendida
I have always been irregular with my periods witch makes it even harder for ttc... And I also don't know when to take a test i feel like i have pregnancy symptoms but then I think it's all in my head witch sucks! I get a period every 3-4 months apart and aug 5th was my first day of my last period so far and I was for sure I was going to get a bfp and nothing so I thought maybe it's to early to tell till today I took one and I still really can't see 2 lines😓 but maybe you lady's have some advice and can help me a little feeling totally down and will have picks of both pregnancy test in the comments