Bigg problem feel like a bad mom :(

Hi girls. Okay I have a big problem and I feel like a piece of crap. I have a beautiful 5 month old baby girl who is my world. I am a basically single mom, but I'm managing fine. Her dad is involved, but doesn't pay anything and has so many problems. We got pregnant off a one night stand. I thank God every day for this Blessing. ..... Okay so when she was two months old I got on bc and a couple weeks later ended up having sex with her dad(only once) and fell pregnant again. When I found out I thought it was a joke, but low and behold I'm almost ten weeks pregnant. Well long story short, I feel like I cannot become attached to this new baby. I feel awful for saying this, but I don't really care if I lost it or not. :'( I just wanna be a parent to my baby girl and finish school. Don't get me wrong, I am not far from finishing, but I just feel like I can't be happy about this pregnancy.

Shortly after I fell pregnant I realized how bad her dad was and I was thinking how in the hell am I going to bring another baby into it. Needless to say, I'm not with her dad, but I also don't keep his child away if he wants to be in her life. I just can't stop feeling like a piece of crap. I'm a wonderful mother and I know this, but I feel like I'm already letting my new baby down and will I really love it like I love my daughter? Advice. No mean comments please I don't wanna read things like that on here. Thanks a bunch.