Dreams about aborted baby

***please don't judge, I'm having a hard time with this, and trying to heal***
January of 2014 I found out I was pregnant. At first my fiancé and I were very happy, but then my family put so much stress on me, stopped talking to me completely, and I began feeling suicidal which led to me feeling like I had to have an abortion. 
I always felt like the baby was a girl, and I feel like at one point I was visited by her to let me know she was happy and healthy in heaven. I'd been having a really hard time dealing with having the abortion (I still struggle sometimes with it).  Lately I've been having more dreams about a baby, and I can't help but feel like it's her visiting me again.
Has anyone else had this happen or something similar?

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