I am sorry but just because she has cancer doesn't mean I have to forgive her.

When you get starved because she wants to lose weight when you are in middle school, then talk to me about forgiveness.

When she draws a gun on you for getting a glass of water when you are 13, then talk to me about forgiveness.

When she gives you repeated swirlies and bounces your head off the toilet because you missed some scum with the tooth brush you were cleaning with, then talk to me about forgiveness.

When she tells you you aren't allowed to feel anything because her life is worse, then talk to me about forgiveness.

When she would rather you be with an abusive ex than happy and out of her house, then talk to me about forgiveness.

When she calls you a liar and a slit for being raped at 4 years old, then talk to me about forgiveness.

When she beats you senceless because you laughed at a joke at her expense, then talk to me about forgiveness.

When she has you clean a bar at 11 and throws beer bottles at you because you can't carry three cases, then talk to me about forgiveness.

When she sells your antibiotics after a surgery causing you to go into septic shock, then talk to me about forgiveness.

When she throws you through the window, and kicked you in the abdomen repeatedly, and causes a miscarriage.... the only good thing that had ever happened to you.... then,.... then you talk to me about forgiveness.

Just because my mother has stage 4 lung cancer, and 6-12 months to live, doesn't mean I need to forgive her. And that doesn't mean I am a horrid person. Just a person fed up.