So my husband and I went to our first decently big party tonight. I wanted to go and so did my husband. I told him I was already starting to get anxiety before we left but I really wanted to go. Once I got there I totally locked up. I knew but only two people and totally just locked myself into a hole. I couldn't speak to anyone but his sister. I use to not be like this as a teenager. I almost started crying while at the party. I didn't know how to act or what to say I felt like a picture on the wall. We left when his sister left and I felt ashamed and relieved we were leaving. I can't even go to a simple party. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me.