I'm 19 and in college and I went to visit a friend at his campus. We were drinking and he went to go shower and told me to catch up. I didn't eat since noon and I got to his campus by 7. I started drinking. Half a bottle of tequila later I was gone. I remember taking a shot and next thing I know I'm waking up in his bed alone. No shirt, my skirt still on, no stockings or panties. I'm super confused and two hours later he comes in the room( slept over another girls room apparently) I asked him what happened and why I was missing my clothes. He said let's pretend it never happened. I was like ???? Um. No? I need to know what happened. He then pointed to his neck and said I gave him the hickie he had there. I was taken aback. Never in my mind would I even kiss him let alone leave a hickie. He said I asked him to kiss me and that next thing you know one thing led to another and we had sex. Unprotected. I was gonna ask more questions but he looked so annoyed I was even asking and he said just pretend it never happened. It was just a drunken hookup. I asked why I was so bruised and he said I fell off the bed many times and then threw up at one point which is why there were no sheets he went to wash them. My thing is. I feel disgusted at the thought of even making out with him let alone letting him inside of me in that manner. He made it seemed like I initiated it. I don't remember it at all. Is it rape?. I don't know what to think anymore.