Buying huge granny panties and crying...

Ok, so I guess having to go buy huge granny panties for the postpartum blood scenario has got me really emotional, scared, nervous, etc. I am so far out of my comfort zone, and not knowing what to expect is so terrifying for me. I mean, we planned this, we wanted/want this, it's the right time, etc. But now that I have like two weeks left, certain things (like granny panties) are sending me into a very nervous place. I was doing mostly great until just recently!!