I'm out

Amanda • I`m 32. Ttc baby #1. I had a chemical pregnancy in August and a chemical again in February. Praying for my rainbow baby
So my af is due 11/7 and I've been wiping brownish discharge since 11/3. Looks like I'm out this month. This was my first ttc since my miscarriage in August. I don't know why I was so hopeful that it would happen so fast for me, even though I know that it's irrational. But I cried like a baby yesterday... I'm feeling depressed all over