First time mother

I am 5 weeks and some days. I feel very over whelmed by this process in my head. but in the forefornt I am not as excited. Even though my partner is with me every step of the way, i still feel alone almost. I dont really have any girlfriends where I live which is were the loneliness is coming from.  Im waiting to let family know until the risk of miscarriage goes down. People have babies everyday i just dont feel as special as I think I should. I am just randomly rambling things on my mind.