I'm DONE (husband rant)

I am SO done. AF came today, right on time and it hurts! I am hurting! I am so disappointed and feel so help/hopeless. The worst part is I feel alone in this. I have been married for a year and we both want children but my husband had low testosterone and hasn't done anything about it. His low T levels basically cause erectile dysfunction and he can't ejaculate every time we have sex. Too often it goes soft and it is frustrating. So on my fertile week we have sex maybe twice. Also, his semen is clear and in not sure if that's a bad sign about the quality/quantity of sperm. He is well overweight so I think that is his problem. He doesn't workout, and is always starting a gym membership but stops going after a week. I constantly ask him to get a doctors appointment with a specialist or try different vitamins etc but nothing. I DONT GET IT! He says he loves me and I know he does but I cannot fathom how he can watch me be heartbroken every month and not do anything to get himself together. I resent him for this. I just needed to get this all out because I just feel by myself in this. I can't talk to my friends or family because I don't want to put our business out there or disrespect/ embarrass him. I just want someone to understand. I hate this....