New to baby fever....confused

Kaleana
Since getting this app I have gone through all of the different communities to post in and this seems to be the best one that I fit in except I haven't started TTC yet but I've started getting baby fever about a year ago.  
I have never wanted kids.  But my BF of the last two years has brought it out in me. Our situation is complicated and to make it simple we can't start TTC for a few reasons and it's kinda driving me nuts. 
I don't know how to deal or process these feelings and emotions. I've tried talking with him but I find it more frustrating to talk about and plan for something I can't start working on. He wants to start TTC and all the same things I want. 
Help!!!