I don't want to test!

My period was due on Halloween but has yet to show up, i'm so afraid to test! I'm afraid it will be negative and I'm just left confused as to why I missed my period. I'm currently cd 40 (my longest evvveerrr), normally there anywhere between 28-32. This is totally out of the normal and I have all the symptoms 😕 just scared to test 😭😭